It’s easy to talk about trust.  It’s easy to think about trust.  It’s even easy to act like you trust.

“As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.” Ecclesiastes 11:5

About 2 months ago, Brooke and I found out she was pregnant.  Today, we went to the doctor to have our 10 week ultrasound, to see pictures of the baby in Brooke’s womb and hear the heart beat.

Unfortunately, we found out bad news.  Brooke is not pregnant.  Her body thinks she is, but she really isn’t.  Basically, the cells never divided, according to our doctor.  She will be having the signs and struggles of miscarriage any day now.  It was a paralyzing message to hear today.

And now we need to live out the trust.  Ouch.  We need to pull it off the shelf and put it on, reminding ourselves that God is in control, and we are not.  Even when life is hard, unthoughtful, and unexplainable, we are (always) learning to trust God. Although it is weird and painful, we must be grateful for the building of our character.  He is the Maker of ALL things.

Honestly, it is just a weird thing to swallow.  To swing from one major thought to another.  From “going to have a baby” to “not going to have a baby” is a hard thing to shuffle. And to have it happen so quickly is hard to process.

We knew from the get-go that this was always a possibility.  We knew from the beginning that we needed to trust God.  And now He has given us the opportunity to do that.  He has also re-framed our outlook so that eventually, when we do have a baby, we will be all the more grateful!

Thanks to everyone for your prayers.